Entries Tagged ‘Rambling’



I don’t like to wonder why I am single.

Sitting on the floor of my new bedroom this evening (sort of an oxymoron, it’s new for me but it’s a really old cottage) I was found sorting through many years worth of knickers. With a lack of furniture to utilise (it’s hard trying to make a small bedroom worth of stuff fill an entire unfurnished flat) I decided that if I’m forced for a little while to hide my undergarments in my divan bed drawers, I might as well do it properly.

There I sat, teacup to hand whilst I proceeded to fold my knickers and file away accordingly. In the end, I found myself with four piles of knickers. Well five if you include the ones bound for the bin.

The first pile contained knickers that I would willingly remove clothing for in order to be seen, i.e. when things are going well on a date. These are the fancy, sometimes frilly, sometimes not, knickers which usually belong to a matching bra somewhere.

The second lot consisted of stuff I wouldn’t mind being caught wearing if say, I was knocked over by a granny on her zimmer car and was rushed to hospital with a fractured pelvis. Thus the (hopefully!) cute doctor was then forced to remove my clothing to assess the damage.

You can see I’ve given this a lot of thought.

The third pile was home to knickers only suitable for that time of the month. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t purposely buy knickers just for that occasion, it’s just when my underwear become a little threadbare, or god-forbid –whispers- stained, they get relegated to pile three. It’s sort of like a hierarchy of pants.

One becomes two and two eventually becomes three. It’s just the order of things.

So what, must you be wondering, is in pile four?

Underwear that is too good to be used for that time of the month, but not good enough to show on a date or even to an unsuspecting doctor!

Do you see how complicated my life is? And this is only my underwear drawer.

Pile four contains, amongst other things, a Christmas themed pair of Miss Piggy and Kermit the frog knickers. The material is thick. They cover more skin than I’d like to admit to. Sometimes I wear them to bed under my equally hideous pyjamas.

I don’t like to wonder why I am single.



I slipped down a quiet side street off of Times Square and rolled into the first dodgiest pizzeria I happened to come across.

How do you spot a first timer in New York City? Easy. They’re the ones constantly looking up in wonderment at the towering buildings that fill the view of the sky. Either that or they’re busy getting mugged.

A few months ago I was dancing wildly under the full moon in the Sahara desert. Now I found myself in the sprawling metropolis that is New York City. They couldn’t have been more different.

Growing up in London I thought New York wouldn’t have that much of an effect on me. I was wrong.

Much like when I visited Rome last year, I spent my first night in the Big Apple exploring the city with nothing but a notebook and a bottle of water in my bag. I didn’t even have a map this time, not that I needed it; what with the streets being arranged by numbers: 5th Street was next to 6th Street and so on. I could count.

I remember coming out of my hotel on the first night and turning the corner… and squinting. I was greeted to the bright lights of Times Square. My face lit up. Not because I had a million worth of watts shining down on me but because I’d made it to New York City.

And I made it without managing to eat once on my eight-hour bus journey over from Montreal. My first port of call was to eat something. The sights and sounds of the city could bloody well wait for my stomach to stop growling, thank you very much.

(more…)



I knew Apple enabled creative types to reach the best of their potential, I just didn’t realise to what extent.

It turns out sitting in a coffee shop is a productive experience. Not only have I kept the coffee bean trade and the Coca Cola Company in business, but I’ve also captioned two dozen photos of a greedy squirrel.

All this wouldn’t have been possible without the use of of my brand new MacBook Pro.

Something which I succumbed to buying within the first two days of my time in Canada.

I knew Apple enabled creative types to reach the best of their potential, I just didn’t realise to what extent. My MacBook battery wasn’t even fully charged when I entered the said coffee shop nearly four hours ago and it tells me I still have three and a half hours left.

I fear the rest of my trip in Canada will be spent in other such caffeinated establishments and if I’m not careful this blog will be reduced to ramblings of the inner workings of such places rather than the beautiful landscapes of North America.

For instance, did you know there is such a thing called a suicide cake? I discovered this yesterday, when you guessed it, I was sat in another coffee shop. Imagine a normal sized slice of cake and then multiply the height of that by three and then a little bit more just for the hell of it. Next, take the calorie content of a normal slice and multiply that by a zillion.

It’s huge. The amount of calories in one mouthful alone would have me running off the edge of a cliff.

Which is why tomorrow I plan on having a slice and staying as far away from cliff faces as I possibly can. And a pair of scales too for that matter.

I’m not stupid.

Well, maybe just a little. After seeing far too many Apple based products during my time in Montreal, I admit I became a little green and decided I must have something with a big fat Apple logo on.

So after walking an hour and a half into the French/Canadian version of Oxford Street, I found an Apple store (Pomme store?)  and proceeded to stare and drool in unhealthy amounts at the shiny, overpriced machines.

I approached a sales assistant

“Please be gentle, this is my first time with a Mac.”

“Don’t worry Mam, we’ll be gentle with the machine.”

“No, I meant be gentle with me.”

I’m in love. I’m just not sure if it’s with the weird French speaking town, Montreal, or my brand new MacBook Pro.

Only time will tell.

 

 



Dating is one big game, I just get the feeling I’m the one being played.

For the past month or so now, I’ve been trying on men the way most women, or so I’ve heard, try on shoes. I know they’re not really necessary, and yes, I’ve already owned a similar pair one time or another which have been relegated to the back of my closet for various reasons (they no longer fit, I’ve grown bored, they’re not in fashion anymore, they refuse to sit nicely on me feet etc) but I can’t help myself.  With each date I go on I feel this might be the pair that finally fits, this might be the one that makes me feel as if they were made for me and me alone; my sole mate as it were.

The reality is much less glamorous than I’m making it out to be.

Sure it’s good to go out and date new people; good like chocolate starts out to be but after your third family size bar, all you end up feeling is sick.

And yet, once the sick feeling goes away, there I am reaching out for another slab of the good stuff.

It’s a vicious circle.

(more…)



It’s probably the stupidest thing I’ve ever agreed to do

I appear to be on the precipice of a situation in which I find myself willingly falling towards; gravity has no power over me, I am in fact choosing to meet the ground face on – teeth first.

What the hell am I talking about?

You know when you meet someone amazing? Someone who completes you when you already feel whole? Someone who inspires you enough to end all sentences with a question mark, simply because using a full stop would mean putting a premature end to describing their awesomeness?

I’ve found that person in the most unexpected of places.

In between the bookshelves at work; with messy brown hair and glasses so officiously large, if they were to carry a wand around with them, they’d very well be mistaken for Harry Potter. Or a bit of twat.

No, I haven’t just discovered the literary delights of a certain JK Rowling. I did in fact discover those many years ago.

Instead, I have found something, or rather, someone, who I have decided is worth giving up my job for and eloping to Canada with. I won’t mention at this point that them kissing the place just behind my ear would induce me to act in similar, irrational ways. That’s just not important.

And yes, it’s probably the stupidest thing I’ve ever agreed to do (except for maybe that perm I had about six years ago) but I know it’s the right thing to do, because even when the fear of giving up a perfectly reasonable job eats away at me like a bout of terminal cancer, I know that I’ll be okay.

I know that whatever absurd, embarrassing, I’m-going-to-die-of-shame moments that will undoubtedly come my way in the following weeks, I know they will be shared in the best possible company.

I know that when I find myself back in London, jobless and with no money having spent it all gallivanting around Northern America with nothing but someone else’s clothes on my back – I know it will all be okay.

And even if it won’t be, I’m sure I’ll have a hell of time getting to that point of: Where did it all go wrong?

My only concern will be, when can we do it again?